Friday, February 12, 2010

When I went back to school

I hate school.

I am 27 years old and never put school first never till now.My oldest child is 14 and my youngest is 5.I always had a good life, worked hard, took care of my kids,and had a lot of people that always loved and helped me throw right, wrong and things I just should have never done.My youngest child started school this year.

For the first time in along time I was not running or cleaning or talking or feeding and giving all my time to a child.I watched TV, I got dressed,I walked around my house thinking this is just so boring I cant wait to go to work.

The next day i did the same. After about a week I started to feel sad and worthless. Like all I get to look forward to is going to work.I hate my job,too.The only reason I work there is to be able to provide for my kids and now there all growing up and don't need me that much any more and I have nothing to do.

When I was feeling bad for my self and my husband was trying to make me feel better by telling me that I have already done so much in my life already and I should be proud of my self,it made me feel better.

I went to the bathroom and I looked in the mirror.I realized something I never noticed before....How young I really am.I still have my youth.I am still very young and have so much more to do.

I enrolled back in school and today was my second day.

11 comments:

haida said...

Congratulations!!!

you made a good choice because is never to late to start something
always look in to the future.

sue said...

I admire your courage. Welcome!

Amber said...

Great story Jessica, I'm glad that you took the time to do something for yourself. I'm sure it wasn't the easiest thing to do.... but it's good that you did!

Elena said...

Congratulations! keep going there is always something new to learn.

Sara Rae said...

Your story is inspiring to me because I am also a parent, and I know that it is easy to always put your children first.

You have made the choice to do something very important now, for yourself, which will ultimately benefit your entire family too.

Congratulations!

Eva Syrovy said...

what a great story, and so honest!

KURT said...

I think this is a story. And I look forward to working with you. Through out are classes together. And enjoy the nice days.

KURT said...

That was a nice story; I look forward to working with you in class. Be sure to enjoy the nice days.

Brian said...

What a great thing you are doing! I hope you come to realize that putting yourself first and making school a priority for yourself is a wonderful thing. However, I'm sure you won't be the only person in your life to benefit from going back to school. When parents of children take classes, they set wonderful examples for their children, so that their children can see their parents learning and studying and being good students. Almost always, children of adults who are good students end up being good students, too!

Putting yourself first and studying for your own self-improvement is great, but never underestimate the positive impact it will have on your family as well. :)

corey said...

do your thang girl an dont let nothing stop you from success.

Hannah said...

Great story! i think you made a very good choice!